Sick...

I think I've worked myself up so much that I don't feel good.  My stomach hurts pretty bad and has most of the day.  Just trying to make sense of so many things that so many people have told me...trying to make sense of this jumbled mess of my life.  God has a plan and understanding isn't my place.  But I'm not going to lie, sometimes I wish that my plan was God's plan.  I know I need to be faithful because ultimately, His plan is perfect and I will trust and find comfort in that.  But for now, I wrestle with this overwhelming sickness...